Day 1 of the Commit

Okay, here's my thought: use my blog to chronicle the next 8 weeks as Toby and I quit smoking. Maybe this will be away to help me kick the cravings, I can blog when I want to smoke. We are very fortunate that Toby's company offers to pay 100% if you choose to participate in the Commit For Life Program. We both called and got us a Coach who we can call 24 hours a day, and they sent us each 8 weeks worth of patches.

13 years of something is a long time. I realized last night that 13 years is how long I have smoked...13 years!!! That's the age of our oldest child! I did quit both times that I was pregnant, but for some reason I started again. I know that I can do this, it's mind over matter...

Day 1: Man this is going to be hard! Toby woke me up at 7:30 and asked me if I wanted him to put my patch on now, because it takes like 5 min to get the full effect. I said "sure" and went back to sleep. I never really did fall back to sleep (stupid train), so I thought I would get up and start the day.

I have my morning routine that I do EVERY morning: going to the bathroom, putting in my contacts, brushing my teeth, then going to smoke.

So today was no different, I got up went potty, put in my contacts, brushed my teeth, but then I had to stop myself at the back door. As I was unlocking the door I realized that I had smoked my last cigarette last night. I turned around and went to the computer to check my various accounts. I was good for about 25 minutes, then I guess it was a craving that hit me. All of a sudden I was feeling this "got to have a cigarette NOW" feeling. I went and showered instead.

Okay so it is 8:48 AM on Day 1 and I am already fighting this. I hope that today is the hardest day (we have been told that day 1 is always the hardest) and that tomorrow it gets a little easier.